1. I came home from a run Saturday afternoon and my dad was watching Mean Girls. It made me laugh and it made me laugh harder when he was cracking up during certain parts. (None of which I can remember exactly now--maybe the getting hit by the bus part? or the creepy/gangster-wanna-be Mathlete guy)
2. Sunday was the five year anniversary of Brooke Wilberger's disappearance. It's hard to believe it was so long ago because I can still remember vividly what I was doing and where I was when we got the phone call asking for my dad's help to search for her the day she went missing. I remember I had just come home for the summer after my sophomore year at BYU, I sat withBrooke at church the day before. We discussed "her missionary" and my impending study abroad to Vienna. This Sunday I talked with the mother-in-law of Brooke's sister at church on Sunday about it and how I miss her and have been thinking of her a lot this week. Brooke's family is incredible. They are still strong and so positive. It makes me really grateful for my church and our doctrine.
3. I made a cake for our Memorial Day swim party yesterday. It was the Flag Cake from Ina Garten but was featured in Martha Stewart a few years ago. I think it turned out pretty good but I can't find the cord to hook the camera to the computer so there will be no picture, but just remember, I did the cake pretty dang good, and the cake and the frosting part were delicious alone but with a little added raspberry and blueberry it was divine. I probably could have eaten all the batter and frosting as they were. Not kidding, they were that good.
4. I graduated over a month ago. And I have done nothing. I can't tell if that's fabulous and wonderful or slightly pathetic and depressing. We'll see.
5. I'm trying to get back into shape. I felt really good about myself that summer Brooke went missing but after going to Vienna, I lost the good habits I had formed and slowly got back to how I was before Vienna. I guess the fact that I love to try new food didn't help at all, but Vienna + England + France + 18 months in Poland + summer Europe trip + back in Provo gotta try all the foods I loved and missed + Jerusalem, got me so off track from where I had once been that it wasn't even a habit to eat healthy or eat right. I found myself eating lots of high fat foods, using food to socialize, using food to comfort (Ben and Jerry's, especially the new Marzipan one, Mint Cookies and Cream, the cake one, and Imagine WhirledPeace--although I might just like this one because it has peace sign chocolate pieces and I like the Beatles). I made ridiculous goals for myself like this, that I knew I couldn't keep and then got frustrated and down on myself when my unrealistic expectations couldn't be met. (Although, I do understand that my goal could be met with a little self control, it just isn't realistic for me to not eat sweets, I like them too much. Giving up being lazy would be a more realistic goal.) So, back to why I'm blogging about this. Well, actually I don't know why I'm blogging about it. I guess it's on my mind a lot today because I had a slight freak out to my mom when I stepped on the new scale we just bought and I appeared to have gained five pounds from the morning weigh in to the lunch-time-testing-the-new-scale-weigh in. I was not happy because clearly the scale I had previously been weighing myself on is off by about five pounds! I've since mellowed out and calmed down, and I still don't really know why I'm blogging about this. Do I really want people to read about this? I don't even know who reads this. I have a few loving commenters but most people don't comment (as much as I wish everyone would comment *hint hint*), I know I read blogs I don't dare comment on! But I guess maybe this is why I feel melancholy today.
That's a lot going on in my mind these past few days. There was more I swear there was more. And it was more good stuff than bad. Today though I feel like the slightly depressing over powered the good.
And I thought this was going to be a short post. Hm...
Edit May 31, 2009: I found the cord for the camera so here is a picture of the Flag Cake!
13 comments:
WOO-HOO!!! I'm the first to leave a comment! Sweet. So, I have a proposal for you. I think we should RENDEZVOUS IN VIENNA after you come for a VISIT TO EDINBURGH!!! Hello! You've been both places so we could just go crazy seeing all of the highlights! What say you? Oh - and just so you know - I graduated five months ago and have done nothing (at least in terms of academics). It feels good the first little while, but I'm starting to go stir crazy... =)
I also have done pretty much nothing since graduating!! I'm telling myself it's a much deserved break? It's fun to tell people you're just "hanging out" for the summer....
Don't even get me started on weight issues.. AAAAHHHHH!!!!! I'm so sick of the gain and lose and gain and gain!
I think one of the young women values should be "positive self-image" because every woman I know is dissatisfied with her body and is either on a diet or thinks she should be. Elder Holland gave a really good talk about healthy bodies, I think it was October 2005 (?) check it out. And I am also needy about validation through comments. I guess that is probably why we blog.
A comment for you! :-)
I got on the scale before leaving for work... after spending the last 2 weeks on vacation in Oregon and discovering "Sweet Life" on Monroe in Eugene - it IS a Sweet Life... as long as you through out the scale - and was depressed. I feel your pain.
Thanks for the thoughts on Brooke. I always remember being at girls camp with her...I think about her and her family so often...
k, you're moving to dc. we should have a party. we live in a midget apartment, and that is always good for a party. fer serious.
when do you get here?
Ah,I can relate about the sweets! I love them to much to give them up! I guess there is a balance in all things:-). And I didn't know you were so close to Brooke. Wow, the whole thing is pretty sobering.
Anyway, just think, you are not at PWS doing the dumb CE list...life in Oregon has to be better than that!
I'll comment lauren! Don't be discouraged about stuff--I haven't done anything since I graduated and it's awesome! Embrace it while you can!
2 things:
1. COME TO DC. Seriously. now is the time. Don't put it off anymore. You will love it out here and it will do you much good!
2. lindsj.blogspot.com This is my random blog that I started writing health stuff on. Now my cousin and I are tracking how much veg. we eat, etc. The 'temple of god' talk changed my life.
that is all. Love you!!
I'm eating a bag of marshmallows right now. A big bag. And I know I shouldn't. Don't beat yourself up too much.
I love when people comment on my blog. It makes my day. I've been trying to do better about commenting on other blogs now too.
I am going to be in Vienna in early august and need some suggestions. It's with Eugene Concert Choir, so a lot of the time is scheduled. I have never traveled with a tour/bus and know I am going to need to break out of the crowd. I have been to Vienna twice before (ask me sometime about the perverts) but could use some suggestions. Have you been to Prague or Budapest?
As for body image, I get on the scale about once a month. If it isn't higher, I am happy.
Lauren I was just so proud to see how many people have commented on this post that I had to join the masses and make it 12! You gotta post a picture of the cake you made when you find your cord, cuz i love seeing pics of your cakes... they are always masterpieces. just like you. haha little bit of cheesiness never hurt anyone, right? love you girl. you're great and beautiful and funny and totally should not get down on yourself because you're just too darn cool for that. thats all i am going to say about that. peace!
YUM! That cake makes my mouth start watering! You make the coolest stuff.
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